Before I write any further, I think now I know why am I so bad in speaking, maybe it is because I rarely use English to communicate now. Back in my university, I have to use it or else no one will understand what I am talking about. I realise that I still have confidence when I speak using technical terms especially economics terms. Maybe I used to present in that 'language'. Other thing is, every time I want to speak, I will translate in my mind from BM to english and because my BM is too good, I have a tendency to have a quite complex sentences to be translated into english. So maybe from now on, I will try to use english as frequent as possible and avoid doing the translation.

Anyway, what I will write for today is regarding our culture. I will not comment on every social norms because it will take forever for me to write them down. Yesterday, when I browsed through internet looking for something, I found an article regarding this young actress who- I don't know whether it is a mistake or not- wrote a grammatically error sentence, and everyone start to comment on that. Most of them gave bad comments on that matter. I just don't understand what kind of culture do we have here. They like to condemn people on every mistake they did it just like everyone has to be perfect in every sense and that ridiculous. Only Allah is that perfect. This culture is very rooted in Malay people, that is why sometime it is hard to get a Malay volunteer to do something in front of so many people because the cost of failing to do something is very high. If you make a mistake, you can't expect everyone will go to you and pat on your back telling you that it is ok. Some of them will 'boo' you and some of them who are more polite will just whisper to a person next to him/her 'tu la berlagak sgt, padan muka'. If we can't afford to make mistake, don't even dream to gain success.